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jms01 BSN

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    What if I'm not meant to be a bedside nurse?

    Realistically, I only want to be at the bedside because I’ve hard time and time again that you need that experience to be an FNP. I have every intention of applying to an FNP program in the next year, but my concern is if I’d be able to succeed in that role without the bedside experience. Could anyone here explain what the pros and cons are? I’d like to transition to a different role in the next year. Maybe I’d feel more comfortable at the bedside with the experience I’m getting now.
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    What if I'm not meant to be a bedside nurse?

    Because of ADA laws, they had to offer me an alternative. A clinic job was an accommodation due to the fact I couldn’t work nights. I do like the bedside because I believe I can still learn a lot there. I didn’t like the chaos, but I was looking forward to learning and thriving in a place that would provide me a good foundation for graduate school. In a perfect world, I would’ve learned just a quickly as everyone else, but prioritizing was my weak point. Critical thinking is something I’m still working on. I want to go back and try because I would like the experience under my belt before I transition to another area. I also would like to really try infusion, but it seems out of reach with the experience I have right now. I don’t know, I’m still a new nurse
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    What if I'm not meant to be a bedside nurse?

    I know being a nurse doesn’t just mean being at the bedside, but I feel that having that bedside experience opens the door for many opportunities, such as the ones I’m interested in. I think that’s why I’m worried that having clinic experience isn’t enough if I try to go into a different area of nursing. Am I overthinking this? Could someone talk about their acute care or outpatient experience and how they made the jump to another specialty? Would love to hear more about it! I don’t want to feel discouraged, I like what I’m doing but I know I’m capable of so much more.
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    What if I'm not meant to be a bedside nurse?

    I would like to go back to floor nursing because I want to understand what I'm doing and bring that knowledge with me for when I go back to school for my FNP. I feel like I never got the grasp of what to look out for if something goes wrong, when to call RRT, why a medication is being prescribed, how to anticipate orders, etc. I was thrown into a pool of sharks and didn't feel ready enough to practice safely. I didn't feel like I knew enough to be safe. Even after 10 weeks, I felt beyond stupid and like I truly wasn't cut out for the floor, but I really do like bedside nursing. I don't know if I make any sense, but basically I feel like because things don't come to me quickly, I struggled and failed on a tele floor.
  5. I graduated w/ my BSN last Spring and ended up on starting a tele-turned-COVID floor last fall. I felt very fortunate that I got a hospital job, but 2 months in, I was starting to realize how things weren't making any sense. It wasn't just me that noticed my lack of knowledge or piecing things together, but I could tell my preceptor was getting frustrated with me too. She said I had no sense of urgency for things; I struggled to think critically, I was always so task oriented (nursing is a second career for me). I didn't struggle with the hands on skills, I felt like that was my strength and I knew from my friends who are nurses that you can't be so hard on yourself so much. I took every little victory on the floor as a win for me (like putting in an IV on my own), and there were days I felt so stupid, I'd drive home after my shift crying. I also thought my educator was there to support me, but I was belittled over things I didn't realize would be thrown in my face. During one meeting with her, she spoke negatively of the fact that I took multiple attempts to get an IV in on a mannequin arm and draw blood from a PICC line. This was during the first week of orientation, and I had never done either in nursing school. From the beginning, I didn't feel supported, but I pushed through. Fast forward weeks later, and she was belittling me again over the same thing. I don't know if the combo of my educator and preceptor together contributed to my lack of success on a 6:1 tele/covid floor, but I so badly wanted to succeed. At 10 weeks, I was told to go to nights, and I had to say no because I have epilepsy and bc of the nature of my condition, I couldn't put myself at risk. I got transferred to an outpatient neuro clinic, and now I'm basically at a desk all day helping out the doctors, answering "triage" calls and doing med refills. I don't feel like a nurse anymore, I feel like a failure almost every day now, to the point where I cry about it. I don't feel like I know anything, and I didn't feel like I would be a safe nurse on the floor because I didn't know how to pick up on things on my own after 10 weeks. I didn't know how to critically think, I was still working on it. Overall, I feel like a failure. I can't be the only one who has felt like this. I question myself constantly about that experience. I had so much faith in myself that I would succeed. I feel so stupid that I couldn't manage the chaos, the ratios, and learn how to do my job.
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    Failed orientation, now what?

    I'm a new nurse, graduated last Summer and I was hired on a PCU and didn't make it past my 12 week orientation. I was told to go to nights after being hired on days because I wasn't getting the hang of things on the floor during days. Unfortunately, I have epilepsy so I can't work nights and had to request an accommodation. As much as I would've liked a longer orientation, that wasn't an option, and neither was going to another floor. I'm fortunate my hospital system was able to place me somewhere else, but I'm now working outpatient neuro and it's not as exciting as the floor. I'm worried that I won't be able to transition to another area of nursing, when I decide I'm ready to look again, because I'm not sure this job really entails much except a lot of phone triage, med refills, and some case mgmt. I thought I knew what I wanted to do as a nurse, but now I'm realizing the floor was too stressful and I didn't feel ready near the end of my orientation. I was hoping to look into wound care or infusion, but many of those jobs require acute care experience, which I lack ?? I am open to different areas, but I'm worried I may not be an ideal candidate given my lack of hands on skills. The only skills I gained were being tele & IV certified. Does anyone have any words of advice for someone like myself who's still pretty new to the profession? Thank you